Is everything fated?

I don't believe in fate before.. Now I really do.. Is counting cards so true? I miss everything when I was young. No worried no nth. When I grow up many things happen. Love work family. This r the three main things in my life. What if one day I leave this world? Will anyone be upset? Shld I believe in certain things. It is hard. I fell for the third card deeply. Hw true can it be? It really happen. What happen after the third card? There isn't any more?? U change for ur sight for mine? Tat worst I don't believe. I seriously fear of horrors. Something in me
feel different. I feel so upset. Feel like crying... Is this darkness when u r all alone crying. Yet noone is the for u. Come to think of everything.. Love can be a painful thing. Sometime knowing the truth hurts......... Will u let me wait for u???