What is life without u.

Some stuff are hard to explain. Im a normal person or not. So many people want to be not a normal person. Some people really wish to have supernatural powers. So what exactly is life. Humans? Demon? Angel? Who exactly am i. What is so great about the throne. I fear. For somehow i wake up hearing both of u saying. About death. Is either you die 1st or i die 1st. The windcharm is gettin on my nerves. It was raining so heavily. It was a weird feeling i felt. It seems that we are being watched. The wind is strong all of the sudden. The sky is orange. The orange patron. What if im not the one. What if im the one. Heaven or Hell. 3 months. I do not even know why my feelings for you is so strong. But i really cant imagine if my 3rd eye open. For some reasons, blur images appear in front of me. It is scary images. It seems to be another world. I cant remember my past life. But i only know that all this while im waiting for someone. Waiting for the right one to appear in my life. Please dont live me alone in this world. If you go, take me along with u. Im tired of life. When will my 3rd eye open. im feeling lost on who im. Perhaps im just contridicting myself. Im a freethinker. Please guide me along my life. If im the one, i know i maded a mistake in being playful and make my husband to be suffer. But why let my husband suffer all this pains and yet i cant do anything. Being cuddle in ur arms, i feel safe. I really cant remember how you look inside. Neither do i remember how i look inside. Guanyin, please guide me, enlighten me. I knew u exist. Perhaps im not ready to have my 3rd eye open, i will be damn freak out! Dear, i still dont understand why my love is so strong for u. But im worried for u. Cause i knew myself, u would leave earlier than me. I can only feel my senses are fading. Dear i love u alot.